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|Sunday, August 26th, 2007|
This morning, I woke up to a call from the boyfriend saying that his Captain had collapsed after the Sheares Army Marathon and had passed away after failing to respond to resuscitation efforts.
I think what made it all the more tragic was that it could have been any one of them boys, because Capt Ho was a really fit and healthy guy (met him at the foxtrot social night), and thinking that it could have easily been Sharman who was probably running alongside or behind him, made me think about how fragile life is.
What if it had been the boyfriend?
I think that's a question that most of us nsgfs subconsciously ask everyday. Being in the army, our boys are exposed to risks that other boys in school or elsewhere are not. I know, it's what they have to go through in order to be sufficiently prepared to defend the nation. But that doesn't change the fact that once they turn 18, our boys will be constantly laying down their lives for us, for the people of Singapore. And that is a fact that we nsgfs have to contend with.
So if there are any nsgfs out there who experience the same fear as I do everyday, the irrational panic that sets in when he's late in calling, the insomnia that hits when he's at fieldcamp and it's pouring outside, the heartache whenever he has to go overseas for training stints, I just want to say that you're not alone.
Our prayers go out to Capt Ho's family&loved ones.
|Thursday, July 26th, 2007|
I have found that it is not the days that are hard to survive, but rather the nights. Nights that seem to last forever, nights spent wondering where he is and what he is doing, whether he is safe, stuck in the jungle with no shelter and hardly enough food. I know it sounds dramatic put like this, but somehow when you're alone in the dark with these thoughts, it puts things into a whole new perspective.
Last night, that was me. And where normally I would pick up the phone and call my girlfriends up, last night I didn't. Perhaps it was because they wouldn't understand anyway, with most of them having bfs still in school or single. And though this may sound like shameless advertisement for this site, the fact that I could write my feelings down somewhere actually provided solace, and I fell asleep satisfied that there was this community out here, people who do go through the same thing, who would perhaps understand what I felt.
There has been skeptism about the need for this community, with the perception that those who belong to this community are the gfs who put themselves above their bfs, the whiny needy ones. But I beg to differ. I have been an nsgf for the past 7 months, and there have been times where I felt stifled by the title, because we are expected, perhaps even obligated to understand everything that our bfs are put through. But who is to provide support for us, for all the times we have helplessly looked on as our bfs are confined, tekaned, put through various physical&mental tests?
For the nsgfs who scoff at the need for such a community, I applaud your courage at facing the two years steadfastly, on your own or perhaps with your own support community. But I have found that my own personal group of friends cannot provide the same sort of support that only fellow nsgfs can. And hence, to those that have joined this community, thank you for allowing me this space to share, and I am looking forward to your contributions too :)
|Friday, June 29th, 2007|
01. for new members :)
Hi all! Thanks for joining :)
I think we ALL know by now what a drag NS can be, when our bfs are taken away from us. Sure, they're training to defend us and the nation, but when they have to miss date after date because of confinements & field camps, it can get pretty annoying and lonely.
Fret not! That's what this community's all about. I'm sure all you girls out there have many stories to share, be it the horror of finding out that your bf hurt his head and had to have stitches (for bumping into a lamp post while running, no less -- don't ask -.-) or the sense of pride from seeing him say his oath on the first day of BMT or even the first time he called to say that he missed you from camp.
And of course, no ns gf support group is complete without all the whinings about the military regime that our bfs are put through. Has your bf been confined, YET again? Did his sergeant cut short his bookout days, just because? And is he always sleepy and tired at night, even if it's barely 10pm? Whine away, ladies because we all understand! :)
So come on and share, we want to hear all your stories! (:
The Mods :)